As I sit on the chaise lounge wondering, what am I doing with my life? 40 with no kids, no wife, not even a job!!!

Therapist: Mr CK are you there?

Me: Ehn therapist, honestly, I am not here for you to sweet talk me oh. What kind of life is this?

I was dealing with severe anxiety to the point and my family recommended Mrs. Nalia after my last episode, I had been having episodes for over two years now, but recently it had become worse. This was my third visit, and I didn’t feel good. Perhaps it is because she wasn’t telling me the words I needed to hear; I needed to hear her say I was a failure at 40.

I grew up in an average family and attended some of the fancy schools, and in all honestly, I was the only one among my peers doing badly, which was the one thing that scared me the most. But if we are honest, these timelines end at what point? You want to go to school and, after that, get a good job; after a while, you want to get married, have kids, travel the world, and the list goes on… its almost as if after you cross one timeline, another one shows up.

My mom would always say “Life is in Stages”. But as an adult, I am beginning to understand what she meant, and it can be overwhelming if you do not draw a line with contentment. The pressure and zeal to do more never stops, but we must also learn to appreciate the baby steps.

MORAL: We must learn that everything cannot happen at once, but we will succeed as long as we put in the work. As Martin Luther King once said, “If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”

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Nalia is a graduate of ICT, loves to write, sing and explore new things and places.

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